interesting as it is, I still am unsure. I do believe in the some of the strangest things that have happend. I do, because a few have happend to me personally. When i was 5-6 yrs old, i was playing with friends on a fire escape, i still remember my friends name even to this day 37 yrs later, even tho we were friends for a year if that. I fell 2 stories from the fire escape. The last thing i remember and will never forget to this day, was the ground comming at me, as i fell head first, and the sound of a loud crunch. Some time later, it was strange. I didnt wake in a hospital, but it was long way from where the accident happend, and i wasnt on the ground, but i was stading on the sidewalk. The world came back in the strangest way, i cant to this day exsplain it. There was also another exsperiance. I am a welder by trade, and have been to a lot of diffrent places, doing diffrent jobs. One job i worked at we built water tower sections. They are about 1-2 tons sometimes more each section. While i took a short break, the person i was training, had finished the last of what needed to be done on this section, and it was time to move it. Well because i had not returned yet, someone helped this fellow attach chains, and the hoist. I returned just as it had left the ground to be moved. The new guy handed me the control to operate the crane, because he didnt feel comfortable doing it yet. With good reason, it can be very dangerous. As the section of water tower was in the air, being the shape of it, and so on i was basically under neath the section. Well, i never had a chain break, so i didnt know the sound it made, over any other things make when on a hoist, but for some reason, i ran. Just as i did, the section came down, the chain had broken. The person i was training, didnt see me make it out from underneath, i dove under a work bench at the last second, other wise i would have been dead. No if ands or butts id been dead. He was rather pale when i saw him after comming around from the other side, and he was very relieved. I guess at that point, my thoughts were settled, that there is something i need to do. I to this day have no clue as to what it could be. I just try to be a good person, in what i hope is in the eyes of god. Well i too have had a few other things, that help in why i feel this way, still, i dont want to go to far into it, and hope for a point in the right direction. I know someone out there knows a bit more than i do on this type of thing, maybe one day i will find them.